In Search for Meaning
It feels like just yesterday I was on the phone with my doctor having a panic attack asking for help! I am now on a couple of different medications and seeing a therapist and a psychologist as a part of my CBT treatment.
For those of you that don’t know CBT stands for Cognitive behavioral therapy which is a psycho-social intervention that aims to improve mental health. CBT focuses on challenging and changing unhelpful cognitive distortions and behaviors, improving emotional regulation, and developing personal coping strategies that target solving current problems. Definition sourced from Wikipedia.
So what does my little doctor-infused story have to do with the search for meaning, well at first it didn’t. At first, I was looking for a fix to get through a tough patch which turned into some soul searching opening up all kinds of issues putting me on an almost year-long journey to what I believe is coming too ahead and the next step of the journey is about to begin.
I am not entirely sure what this journey is but I feel I am ready to jump into anything and let the currents take me their want but I do believe it all starts with my rediscovered love of philosophy and all the questions that it asks.
I have been spending some time trying to figure out what I am good at and what I want to do with my life all the while trying to get back to being the most authentic self I can be, which has lead me to read and listen to more and more different philosophies about life and what it means from several different angles.
I have also been looking for motivation and passion for something to help move me along my journey in just trying to figure shit out. Getting back into something that I really loved years and years ago has me feeling that motivation and sparking some passion for living that I have been missing for years now.
So back to the search for meaning. Not sure what meaning I am actually looking for and I don’t really think I care as I am more excited about the journey than anything else along with what I can do during that journey. I am going to throw my most authentic self into this and see where the rest of my life takes me.
There are a couple more adjustments that I need to get into place but that is not stopping me from making the leap and giving myself to the unknown. I will be working on my blog that I just got up and running, check it out over at uncommonkory.com. Skeleton is up and will be working on the first post to launch this week!!!
The time has come and I am glad it had, I have been waiting for a long time.
